Tuesday, March 15, 2005
I sometimes consider going to a rabbi to talk about my problem. I would like to think and hope that a rabbi will have some spiritual guidance to give that would help me. But what could he say? He would not tell me that I have waited enough and it is alright for me to sleep with someone I hardly know. He would not tell me that I could date non-religious Jews or non-Jews in order to increase my dating pool. And there is nothing he could say that would make me feel better about being not just a virgin but never even kissed at 34. The best I could hope for is reassurance that if I am not S.N. in my next relationship, that it is understandable and God will not judge me harshly for it. But even that is irrelevent if I am not seeing anyone. I do not need a rabbi. What I need is more dates. I need a boyfriend. I need a shadchan, and I need a miracle.